Let me tell you about my Ritalin experience.

I tried it.  I loved it.

For two days.

First I need to explain my reason for taking it.  I have Multiple Sclerosis, and the most common symptoms of MS are fatigue and depression {It is important to note that I’d say these are also common side effects of having two 2 year olds and an infant}.  My doc recommended that I get on something to combat at least the fatigue, but what he recommended would cost me $600/mo.  So he said “well no big deal, methylphenidate does the same thing”.  I filled the prescription and found out it was just a generic form of Ritalin.  “Well ok, I guess I’ll try it”.

I would imagine that my experience was similar to that of a blind person seeing for the first time.  Within minutes of popping this pill I looked at my kids and thought “where did you perfect children come from and how long have you been here??”  I spent 2 days in a state of bliss, making plans and being patient.  Remember the movie Limitless?  I was reaching my full potential.  I could only imagine that this is exactly the way I was made to be.  Everyone should be lucky enough to live with this love of life!

And then I woke up.  Or lost my sight again I guess.  I had high expectations that this was the magical cure for my lost life.  And now I guess I’m back to square one.  But the point is that I had a glimpse of who I want to be and who I think I SHOULD be, and it was pretty great.  I know I can get that person back.  How?  Well today my brilliant idea is to learn this song.  I’m gonna do it!  It will work, and when it does I will not only share how I’m feeling but I’ll share the song too.